singing all day.

if ade org tanye saye buat ape kt office ari ni. saye nk jawab ape.mati lah kalo bos tahu sepatah coding saye x buat. oh oh oh cik iqa yg xde mood as the holiday is coming on ! happy mummy.cant wait.kan best kalo office pon ade mid semester break.yummies ! ok lah tuh dpt cuti 4 hari and off for classess for a week ! yummies and double hooray. nk nyanyi kuat2 tp x boleh huwaaa. nk karok.kepade rakan2 karok nnt saye nk nyanyi lagu fifteen n you belong with me.oh i loike.suke suke suke sambil mnghayati lyrics.berangan dan mengimbas kemballi semunye. =p

You take a deep breath and you walk through the doors
It's the morning of your very first day
And you say hi to your friends you ain't seen in a while
Try and stay out of everybody's way

It's your freshman year and you're gonna be here
For the next four years in this town
Hoping one of those senior boys will wink at you and say
"You know, I haven't seen you around before"

'Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
And when you're fifteen feeling like there's nothing to figure out
Well, count to ten, take it in
This is life before you know who you're gonna be
Fifteen

You sit in class next to a redhead named Abigail
And soon enough you're best friends
Laughing at the other girls who think they're so cool
We'll be outta here as soon as we can

And then you're on your very first date and he's got a car
And you're feeling like flying
And you're momma's waiting up and you're thinking he's the one
And you're dancing 'round your room when the night ends
When the night ends

'Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
When you're fifteen and your first kiss
Makes your head spin 'round
But in your life you'll do things greater than
Dating the boy on the football team
But I didn't know it at fifteen

When all you wanted was to be wanted
Wish you could go back and tell yourself what you know now
Back then I swore I was gonna marry him someday
But I realized some bigger dreams of mine
And Abigail gave everything she had to a boy
Who changed his mind and we both cried

'Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
And when you're fifteen, don't forget to look before you fall
I've found time can heal most anything
And you just might find who you're supposed to be
I didn't know who I was supposed to be at fifteen

Your very first day
Take a deep breath girl
Take a deep breath as you walk through the doors

..and if only i could turn back time..!

and its more than ur lover !

Fuh ! penatnye tersekse slame 2 ari. n of crse wanna let u all know wat happend 4 d past 2 days.

memang lah i asik kan teringat d hot story, 1 of the staff in my department infected by H1N1.oh tuhan! so so so scary. tp cm xla communicate sgt ngn die so sedikit lege di ctu memikirkan possibility utk berjangkit kurang sket. n offce was closed 4 d next day.

Next morning mcm beselah kne dtg ofis as im paid to be bored =p. few hours of working, tbe2 gatal2 di sini n sane. balik umah mnjadi bertambah dasyat, kesan die just like bitten by mosquito all over d body.letak lah calamine lotion in hopes kalo bleh baek.mlm mmg x bleh nk tdo. tp esk pagi ok sket lah. few hours keje, gatal2 balik.im just like a monkey, scratching here n there.this time was extremely itchy.sumpah.apekah ini.

btw,im d person that would very rarely requested for a doctor or clinic. but this time, mmg x saba nk jumpe doctor.

balik je terus pegi klinik. n doctor said i was infected by URTICARIA! apekah itu?

x cukup dgn kucing nadi yg berparasit kt umah aku, urticaria jd parasit kt kulit aku plak.adeys.

hah ni lah Urticaria. tp mine was not too red as this, cse i sedikit brown (sawo matang kate) haha

according to doctor, mcm2 sbb would make u r infected by urticaria hives. tp die kate mine bcse of tahap keimunisasi n system body saye drop, sbb tu lah jd cmni. dpt lah injection sebjik after 10 years x ken inject. dooctor kate kt bontot (sorii, x tahu bahase yg lebih sopan ape) sbb kat tmpt laen, sakit. i kate xpe doctor, i can stand with that, i just cant stand with the itchy only.tp mmg padan muke, sakit kne inject kt lengan * sigh*

erm bile d google, ni antara causes urticaria :

-Medications - including NSAIDs, such as aspirin and antibiotics.
-Foods - several different types of foods have been known to trigger urticaria. The most common ones are nuts, chocolate, some citrus fruits, shellfish, food additives, eggs, and wheat products. (pls dont make food as the cause of my infections)
-Infections - including influenza, the common cold, glandular fever and hepatitis B. (ni yg sgt menakutkan i, cse kt ofis ade org H1N1, influenza lah tu kan.ontah!)
-Extremes of temperature.
-Some pets. (mungkin jugak nih, sbb ade parasit kt umah.haha.nadia is to be blamed of crse =p)

tp seems like not too seriuos disease, but once infected, urticaria is more than ur lover! x leh nk pisah kan lgsg, sentiase merase gatal dan tergaru2. and ive recorded, the longest time without scratching was just 2 mins and half. x tipu. tu lah crite pasal urticaria. btw, utk pencegahan sementare, if u seem like to be infected, pls dont scratch! bile scratch , akan jadi merebak ngn lebih teruk sampai bleh wat2 corak2 tulis name pon boleh tau!

but today, the moment im writing this, im free, without urticaria, just have to take medicine if u want to avoid episode 2 of urticaria! btw, tu lah, org kate kalo kite dijangkiti sesuatu, tande nye Tuhan masih menyayangi kite. bile dah jadi ape2 baru ingt Allah. mybe slame ni i yg sungguh terleka, jd bile ade kesukaran, baru lah kelam kabut mntk tolong tuhan.kalo x, semayang pon secare terpantas.ish ish ish.anyway, Thank you Allah utk ingt kan saye supaye sentiase meminta2 kepada Mu dalam susah mahupon senang!

quotes for today : “It is health that is real wealth and not pieces of gold and silver.”

saye mahu die ! hahaha

erm...best nye.jap lagi dah leh kua ofis kol 2.pas lunch dah bleh balik.mintak2 konfem lah bleh balik awal, sbb department saye ade org kne h1n1.best sbb dpt balik awal. tp jgn berjangkit sudah.fuyooo..tatottt.so dah xde mood nk wat ape2. update blog aje lah.

erm...betape bersyukur nye jadi pompuan.mcm2 yg best bile jadi pompuan. tp bile part nk ngorat, x best la plak kalo jd pompuan.saye suke die! tp xleh wat pape.huwaaa..jd laki best lah, bile nk sape2 je, mntak je no phone.ayat2 sket, konfrem dpt punye =p. tp apekan daye, im just a woman. nothing much i can do.melihat dr jauh aje lah.atau pon menjadi stalker terhebat.ari2 stalk die. nk start ber wall2 kt fb ke anta msg ke,jgn harap lah.malu * blushing*.hahaha.

tp..tu lah hakikat nye , suke tp hanye mampu melihat.knape ntah ske? byk sbenarnye factor2 internal n external sy suke die.hahahha.best jugak tuh kalo dpt jd bf.org nye beese saje.x hensem.kaye pon x.bese aje.tp byk attitude die yg sy suke.hak hak hak.tp kan...knal bese2 aje. x brape rapat.lg lah tipis harapan!hahaha.mcm mane nih???penat lah jd stalker ari2.huwaaa..!!

is it the time??

thinking mode. sometimes i do feel so empty.something missing in my heart maybe.all i think is about work, friends and family. im bored! only for now, i feel like i need somebody to be loved and to love me.=( but the fact == i dont have time for that. for now, oklah, project sume x start lagi, then keje pon xla menimbun-nimbun. later, dah tau dah,mesti kene berkampung kt ofis. =(.
mesti x balik2.n if only akan ade relationship bertahan dgn kewujudan partner yg sgt bz.n my mum also kate x pyh la ade sesape dulu skang.hukhuk.apekan daye !

mak saye kate , now its time for u to achieve everything, ur gold ur life and evrything lah.sbb still mude lagi. (im just 22 okies--the only thing would make me smile =))mmg btol pon sbenarnye.saye pon byk sgt impian lagi.konon2 nk further study lg.it may take 2 years.lagi lah x cukup mase.keje smpai malam.weekends plak ade class.oh! mmg xde mase.kesian.

but then, until when ive got to bz only with my own life.im just a woman.of crse i need some1 and mestilah i want kids! hahaha.i have my own plans.xmolah kawen umur 38!haish haish.nauzubillah.tp setelah dicongak2, i need atleast 2 years to make everything fine!i mean my own life = stable, family pon stable, n time pon ade for any other things.tp stelah 2 years , ill be 24. omg!ade lg ke org nak?sempat lagui nk ngorat ye?hahaha.mcm mane?is it the time for me to have some1?

tp jodoh ajal pertemuan sume di tgn tuhan.kalo mmg takdirnye saye single skang,redha aje lah.lets hope 4 the best.org kate kalo bersabar, pulangan nye lebih berbaloi.btol ke?so?mesti kne tgu dulu ye?n illl get org yg terbaek n sesuai utk saye.eh.yeke?saye fobia pon ade jugak kot.everytime rase nk ade feeling kt sape2 je,tbe2 ade 1 prasaan laen kate x pyh lah!n all the feelings fade away.tp tulah.jiwe ku kekosongan ahax.ape yg penting saye x mahu kekosongan hanye diisi, saye mahu pengisian yg baek utk kekosongan ini.aminnnn..skali lagi, is it the time for me to have somebody, or just leave it?-thinking mode -end~

mengenali diri sendiri??

Orang kate bile mate xbleh nk tdo, sile lah kire kambing.btol ke?mcm karut aje. tp bile kt office, mmg ngntuk,lagi2 bile xde keje (orientation week la katekan) haha! xyah kire kambing pon xpe.kire tahi lalat.haha.tp kan org kate , every single tahi lalat ade meaning tersendiri.btol ke? nk cek lah!



Bahagian Badan & FirasatBibir atas kanan
Banyak rezeki, pandai
Bibir atas kiri
Ramai kawan, baik hati
Bibir bawah kanan
Disegani orang, ramai yg suka
Bibir bawah kiri
Pandai bicara, tak mudah kalah
Leher kanan
Cerdas, jujur, berani menderita
Leher kiri
Cerdas dlm segala hal dan banyak pengetahuan
Leher di tengah
Tercapai cita-cita
Biji mata kanan
Suka serong dan pembohong
Biji mata kiri
Pembohong tetapi baik hati
Hujung mata kananBaik hati, sopan santun, cerdas
Hujung mata kiri
Baik budi, murah rezeki
Punggung kanan
Agak mengalami kesulitan
Punggung kiri
Malas dan suka duduk
Betis kananSuka berhibur, boros
Betis kiri
Rajin,tidak suka menganggur
Lutut kanan
Bersikap tidak peduli dan tak mahu berusaha
Lutut kiri
Kurang kuat berusaha
Kepala sebelah kanan
Terkabul cita-cita
Kepala sebelah kiri
Sering menemui kesusahan
Kepala sebelah belakang
Jujur, sabar dan tekun
Kening kanan
Cerdas dan cekap
Kening kiri
Cerdas, sopan santun
Tengah kening
Keras hati, berani segala hal
Hujung mulut kanan
Kecil rezeki, tak mudah kalah
Hujung mulut kiri
Suka berpoya-poya
Ketiak kanan
Dapat menyimpan rahsia
Ketiak kiri
Jujur, banyak yang cinta
Pergelangan kaki kanan
Suka berpergian (keluar rumah)
Pergelangan kaki kiri
Kehendak kuat
Batang hidung
Banyak dicintai orang dan dapat menjadi kaya
Pada hidung
Banyak rezeki
Dagu bawah kanan
Jujur dan baik hati
Dagu bawah kiri
Bijak sana dan berbudi luhur
Kemaluan kanan atau kiri
Baik, suka senggama
Di kepala kemaluan (lelaki)Bakal beristeri 2
Tumit kananJujur dan banyak kawan
Tumit kiri
Baik budi
Alis kanan
Suka menolong, baik hati
Alis kiriRamai yang suka
Pangkal peha kananKemahuan kuat
Pangkal peha kiriSuka kerja apa pun
Telapak kaki kanan
Tak mudah mengeluh
Jari kaki kanan
Suka menolong
Jari kaki kiri
Berbudi, suka berbuat baik
Bahu kanan
Cermat dlm membuat keputusan, banyak tanggungan
Bahu kiri
Suka kerja keras, banyak tanggungjawab
Buah dada kanan
Baik hati, pendiam,simpan rahsia
Buah dada kiri
Ramai kawan, setia pada pasangan
Lengan kanan
Setia dan taat pada atasan
Lengan kiri
Menepati janji dan rajin
Pipi kananRamai teman
Tengah-tengah pipi kanan
Ramai yg suka
Tengah-tengah pipi kiri
Ramai teman
Ubun-ubun
Kurang jujur
PusatCerdas, tangkas, tekun
Pusat bahagian kanan
Sejahtera dalam hidup
Pusat bahagian kiri
Beroleh kemliaan
Pinggang kanan
Sayang pada pasangan hidup
Pinggang kiri
Disayang pasangan hidup
Dada kanan
Dapat mengatasi masalah
Dada kiri
Berani, jujur dan sabar
Telapak kaki kanan
Tidak mudah mengeluh
Telapak kaki kiri
Baik budi pekertinya
Siku tangan kanan
Kuat ingin memiliki kekayaan
Siku tangan kiriBaik hati, suka menolong
Jari tangan kanan
Serba beroleh keuntungan
Jari tangan kiri
Serba baik bekerja
Jari telapak tangan kanan
Banyak rezeki tapi boros
Jari telapak tangan kiri
Banyak rezeki dan cermat
Perut bawah kanan
Banyak rezeki, suka memberi maaf
Perut bawah kiriBaik hati, tenang hidupnya
Sudut mata kanan dalam
Disayang suami atau isteri

Warning!
Jgn tambahkan sendiri mane2 tahi lalat yg korang nak sbb nk prsonaliti tu ade dlm diri korg, n buang mane2 tahi lalat yg korg xnak utk buang personaliti yg korg xnk.definitely it doesnt work!hahahaha. ape yg penting sntiase berusehe utk ubah diri kepada yg lebih baek.ahax.org yg ckp ni pon x berubah2.hahahah.ha..cek jgn x cek..!

i hate making decision!

kadang- kadang rase mcm x perlu plak pilihan dalam hidup.tp bile xde pon susah jugak, sbb tepkse amik ape yg ade je kt depan mate aje.

but, when it comes to my situation now,omg, susahnye nk buat pilihan. btw, saye baru masuk kerje baru abt 1 week.today is just my 6th day kot.n what happen is company lame (i worked there 4 abt 4 mnths kot), dorg offer the same salary ngn company baru nih.keje pon kt sane mmg lg senang n relax lah! owh.susahnye.

byk pros and cons yg perlu di pk2 kan.
kalo keje company lame :
1) keje senang sket
2)environment ok dan relax sket
3) saye sbenarnye nk smbung study, tp xtau lg application saye lepas ke x.kalo lepas ade baeknye saye keje kt company lame sbb ade lah mase sket utk study. tp big problem is saye x tahu sy dpt smbg ke x stdy.huwaaaa.result kua lmbt lg kottt
4) keje kt cni kalo nk kate utk pengalamn ok jugak sbenarnye, tp akan hilang lah sume coding2 yg blaja mcm nk mati dulu, sbb kt cni saye x wat coding pon.implement aje.
5) company lame dkt sket ngn umah.xde traffic jam. xde tol.parking free. *saye suka!*


kalo keje kt company baru :
1) skill n experience mmg bleh ditambah kan. kalo sy rajin mmg bleh berjaye lah kot dlm 'mendeveloping' system.keje mmg astghfirullah la byk.but initially sy relax lg lah(siap bleh update blog kot).hahahaha.
tp utk kembangkan skill n experience especially in coding, cni mmg tempat yg bgs utk saye.org kate mmg a good start lah. tp sbenarnye cite2 saye bkn nk jd developer.cite2 saye hanye bleh tercapai kalo saye dpt smbg study aje.masalhnye kalo x dpt smbg stdy, abeslah.saye kne tukar cite2 lah.
2) stable company kot saye rase.
3) company ni jauh sket ngn umah add on traffic jam lagi. adeys.bayar tol ngn parking juge * sigh*

so mcm mane ye?? susah kan.. plssss..tp mmg nk sgt smbg stdy..!!!! tp mcm x lepas sbb result dulu pon x sberape n its not that easy pon nk dpt. =(
tp kalo sy teruskan perjuangan di company baru neh(ahax) bleh ke saye berjaye ye????minat ke nk jd developer.tp teringin nk tau n nk blaja ape yg dorg sdg buattt.tringin jugak nk terror in programming. tamaknye saye =p.
oh susah nye nk pk sume nye.

i hate making decision !

quote for today " The biggest room in the world is the room for improvement" =)

Quotes to share with !

Since got nothing to do here, instead if reading Hybrid Client System documentation (xtahu pon pekebende nye neh), so i read some short quotes. nice new hobby i think!hahahah

"Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow."
short tp sgt btol kannnn???so ape pon mesti learn from mistakes first. tp part hidup utk ari nih tuh mcm ade salah sket aje when it comes to money part.dapat gaji ari ni , abeskan d same day, n hopefully esk ade gaji laen.hahaha.jgn harap ok!jejeje. btw, d good side of this, kalo dah kate ari nih sedeh, esk harap2 tidak lagi kannn..! today should be better than yesterday okies! this is how s life should be!


"In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life. It goes on."
Robert Frost (1875-1963) American Poet.
yes! whatever it is life goes on and should be going on! jgn sebab something yg bodoh, n sume langkah terhenti.hargai hidup kite yg hanye skali neh. lagi2 kalo putus cinte.ish ihs ish. pepatah i cant llive without u mmg mematahkan semngt orang2 orangan yg putus cinte.ape lah! jgn begitu.buke mate telinge sume nye,lihat dunie and macam2 yg bleh dikejar lg kt cni, and u should remember life is still going on.n anda menjadi semakin tue!oh takutnye,kejarlah ape pon yg patut!hahaha

"Without His love I can do nothing, with His love there is nothing I cannot do. "
saye pon sedkit x sure nih utk ape. tp rasenye kalo kite as muslims, mmg patut kite rase mcm nih. Tanpe cinta Allah, kite xleh wat apepon, tp dgn adenye cinte nye, apepon bleh terjadi. Usehe doa dan Tawakal kan!utk dicintai oleh nye, CINTAI lah DIA dulu.org yg ckp ni pn msh kejahilan lagi. smoge diberikan petunjuk dan hidayah sentiase ...amin..:)

eh.sudah2 la merepek kejap.jap lg nk lunch dah! yeeehaaaa..nk p lunch ngn jelsari ni.kne blnje die.tp sori lah sayang, blnje murah2 aje.sbb xdpt gaji lg.hahaha. n sbenarnye nak g kua cari bunge utk nad sayang yg nk convo ptg nih. Happy concocation Day osmate ku Syang